I need you

Dedicated to my sisters on the journey who are still waiting...

Oh, my forever love
where are you?
How I want to see your face
kiss your lips
read your soul
with your hands on my hips
and lay with you forever
I need you
but not yet
I need you
but not now
I am still preparing
somehow
becoming
developing
into the person
you will love forever
though I know
if I saw you tomorrow
I would want you right then
the time is not yet at hand
I finally understand
that although I need you
I don't need you now
I need you forever
so I will wait for now
and count upon
the glory of heaven
if necessary
I can wait
you are worth every moment
of separation
every tear I have cried
missing you
desiring you
and our life together
I can picture it in my mind
and I have held your hand
a thousand times
but I need to get back to work
and live here
right here
in this day
without you
and I can do it with a smile
and
peace
and
a grateful heart.